Not with the blog! And not with myself. This title is totally clickbait – but also accurate.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m deleting my YouTube channel. Sigh…. But it needed to happen. I LOVED making videos! Both book related and journal/planner related. And things were going really well with it actually! The two months before I stopped posting videos, I was gaining around 50 subscribers a week or so. It was insanity! And it gave me so much confidence and momentum. But it was a very unhealthy relationship.
To be able to film videos, you need to have everything come together in a perfect storm. A quiet space – the time to film, the time to edit….. I had none of those things. Being that there is a pandemic going on, I have my husband and two kids around me at all times. Not that that’s a bad thing – but I don’t have the space to myself to film that isn’t a common space. When I would need at least 30 minutes to film, I can’t just ask them to leave the living room so I can do it. So I found myself getting more and more behind because I didn’t have the chance to hit the record button. When I actually DID get the chance to film, it would be last minute and I wouldn’t be prepared or my phone would be at 5%…. there was always something against me.
Then, when it came to art and journal videos, it was the same problem. I didn’t have the time to film so I wouldn’t do anything. Then I would have an entire week of blank pages and not even know where to begin. Art was much the same.
Basically – not having time to film made me not do anything at all. I felt as though I couldn’t create because I wasn’t filming. I wouldn’t do a page in my sketchbook because the guilt ate me alive that I wasn’t using it as content.
See what I mean? Toxic
The plan for the future you ask? I don’t know! LOL! First and foremost – I’m coming back to making the blog a priority! YAY!!!!! Same reviews but the added content of hauls, wrap up’s, TBR’s, favourites and more. Basically all the ideas I wanted to do for the YouTube channel but never got the chance to film!
Then I’m going to be creative with my art and journals whenever I want to! What a concept huh? I’ve been stuck with my guilt for so long and I can’t wait to just BE. I also plan to do a little more with my Instagram account and I couldn’t be happier about that decision.
And – with all this free time – I might even entertain the thought of opening an online store for art prints, bookmarks, original pieces, and more. I’ve only talked about that for years…..
That was a very long winded way of me telling you that I’m back! I hope you like my blog posts and Instagram posts because you’re going to be seeing a lot more of them!
Until next time, happy reading!