April 2020 Wrap Up & Life Update

Well….. I’m back! I’m not quite back to myself 100% but I’m getting there and I’ll take it! April was so hard. It was hard for basically everyone in the world so I know I’m not alone. I struggled with my mental health in ways I wasn’t prepared for.

At first, when I heard that we had to stay at home unless for groceries I was like YES! This is pure heaven! I hate people and I love staying at home so this is going to be the best! I planned on taking full advantage of the reduced work hours and not going anywhere…….. that didn’t happen. I ended up not knowing what day it was, sleeping 2-3 hours a night (and waking up constantly), losing ALL motivation, and missing what little socialization I actually had before. Most of all – I missed my parents. I wanted so bad to just hug them. I would see them from the porch but I couldn’t HUG them. That was the worst. And then there was balancing working from home, homeschooling, cooking 5 fucking meals a day, and constantly having my family around me at all times. I’m not complaining, really. I grew up as an only child who is introverted so alone time is when I recharge. That’s not happening during isolation…… it all collided together to this perfect storm of “what the fuckery” and I couldn’t cope.

So I took hiatus for two weeks and did nothing. When I say nothing, I mean nothing! I didn’t watch tv or movies, I didn’t read a single book (or even turn a page for that matter), and I attempted to get my sleep back on schedule. Oh….. but I did play Animal Crossing…. like a metric shit ton of Animal Crossing! It was my saving grace in a time of  uncertainty. It gave me something to mindlessly do that was brightly coloured, non stressed, and relaxing. I found that it actually gave me a purpose to wake up in the morning because I had something new to look forward to!

Those two weeks were just what I needed. I slowly felt like I was coming back to myself! My sleep schedule is a little better (though not by much), I have a little more energy and motivation, and I’ve started reading again! So what has this whole isolation thing has taught me? Listen to my body. Rest when I need to. It’s ok to say no and put myself first. Don’t push it because it’s not really necessary or worth it. And, most of all, I don’t need to work my ass off every single day to get things done! Not making any promises BUT I feel like I’m on the right path to being my normal self again…… as normal as that could ever be lol!

That’s enough of my blabbering, you’re here for the books! Spoiler alert – there weren’t many in April lol. I started the month off strong by reading 5 books in 10 days! And then….. nothing. lol. A few of these I still need to review (coming soon) so there won’t be links for all of them. Here are the 5 books I read in April:

Beard science

BEARD SCIENCE by Penny Reid – 5 stars – click for full review
GAH! A book all about my favourite Winston brother, Cletus….. yes please! This one was more about taking things slow and learning to love yourself before you love someone else and I loved that for this book. As always, I enjoyed seeing the previous main characters and how they were doing, but I was so happy that Cletus was finally the star of the show!

House of earth and blood

HOUSE OF EARTH AND BLOOD by Sarah J Maas – 4 stars – click for full review
I had a very hate love relationship with this book. Out of all of her books, this was the hardest for me to get into. We were thrown into the story without ceremony or explanation and it was damned confusing! So many characters, species, houses, politics…. it was all too much! It took me quite a long time before I kept it all straight! But that ending – holy shit! That was one of the longest, action packed, exciting and explosive endings I think I’ve ever read! Now that the set up is over and after the way she left things, book 2 has promise to be epic!

A dead djinn in cairo

A DEAD DJINN IN CAIRO by P. Djeli Clark – 5 stars – click for full review
This is the first time I’ve read a stand alone short story outside of an anthology and all I have to say is that it was WAY too short! I loved the writing style, the setting, the characters, the plot – I wanted so much more and didn’t want it to end! I wish that this was a full length novel because I would devour it!

The bromance book club

THE BROMANCE BOOK CLUB by Lyssa Kay Adams – 3 stars – review coming soon
I wanted so bad to love this but it was just MEH. I needed a book about a book club for the pop sugar challenge and this looked adorable! Who doesn’t want a bunch of strong, powerful, and successful men being a part of a book club that reads romance novels to save their relationships?? Sounds great right? It didn’t live up to my expectations. It was ok but not at all what I was hoping for. Review will be posted soon to explain more.

The nightengale

THE NIGHTINGALE by Kristin Hannah – 4.5 stars –  Review coming soon
I’ve had this book on my shelf for years but never felt like the time was right to read it. This is one of the most hyped up historical fiction novels out there and I wanted to give it all of my heart and soul. This book was so wonderful. Heartbreaking in every way, this book went straight to my soul and made it weep with sadness and anger. Even weeks after reading it, I keep remembering characters and situations and it would pull up all those emotions all over again. The ending wasn’t what I hoped for though and I’ll explain more in the review coming soon!

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I hope everyone is staying safe and healthy and adjusting to this new normal way of life. I also hope that you’ve been able to use this isolation time to your advantage and get lots of reading done! What was your favourite read in April?? Mine was probably Beard Science followed closely by The Nightingale 🙂

Until next time, happy reading!

23 Comments Add yours

  1. evelynreads1 says:

    Glad you’re feeling a bit better! I hope May will be better!

    (www.evelynreads.com)

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  2. jillianthebookbutterfly says:

    I read only 5 books in April also, but 4 out of 5 are now some of my favorites I’ve read this year. I was in a similar position to you this month. My brain felt like mush and I could only get enough out of it to do homework. I put reading aside to finish up the last of my school projects. Because anything involving even the slightest bit of brain power right now makes me nauseous. Plus, my glasses broke, so now I have to rely on an old pair and I can’t get to my eye doc’s office because of their restricted access.

    Fun times during COVID-19.

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    1. OH NO!!! Strangely enough, my worst fear has been my glasses breaking 😂 I do have a back up pair but still. When you rely on them it’s kind of important lol. I hope you’re done your school year soon. I can’t imagine having to do all of it online 🙁

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  3. Nia says:

    Oh, I’m so sorry you felt that way, but I’m glad to hear you’re doing so much better!
    To be honest, my situation was kind of similar. I’m so thankful of Animal Crossing because it honestly helped my mind to focus on something, because I struggled a lot with anxiety the first couple of weeks. Luckily, I’m doing so much better now and my motivation to read and do other things has improved, so hopefuly May will be a better month for both of us😊.

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    1. Yes! Animal Crossing has been an absolute lifesaver!!! It’s amazing how many hours can pass playing it 😂 And it helps clear the mind more than anything right now. I can send you my friend code if you would like? And I’m glad things are better for you too!

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      1. Nia says:

        Yes! That’d be awesome, and that way I can add you there 😊.

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        1. I’ll get the code shortly 🙂

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        2. Ok friend code is SW-1387-5712-9116

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          1. Nia says:

            I added you 🙂

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  4. CJR The Brit says:

    Glad your feeling more yourself. I was knocked for six by the virus and found myself worrying about everything….and I’m not normally like that at all.

    I think I read 5 books in April too but 5 for me is good at the moment!!

    Happy reading 😁

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    1. Yeah even people that have never had anxiety before are struggling. It’s no fun!

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      1. CJR The Brit says:

        It really isnt….I just think I’m getting back to my normal headspace and then new worries about school starting again, 2nd waves etc rear their head!

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        1. I hope you’re feeling back to yourself completely soon! 💕

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          1. CJR The Brit says:

            Thank you, stay safe ❤❤

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  5. Zezee says:

    I’m glad the break helped. Definitely listen to your body and don’t push it too hard. Hope things continue to get better.

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  6. cathepsut says:

    I hope you will continue to feel better! I am still stuck on the five meals a day. Why five meals a day?

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    1. Well, three normal meals and then two extra for my picky as hell children 😂 it’s a really good day when all 4 people in the house eat the same thing lol. But that’s a rarity

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  7. suzan khoja says:

    It’s just like my story. An only child, an introvert, hate people and don’t have time for myself but books do the stress relief thing and when I am reading my family tries not to disturb me (Mostly fails) but at least they try. I hope you get better and you actually did have a very productive month so congrats to you and good luck for the future.

    Stay Safe❤✌😊

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    1. Apparently we have a lot in common!

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      1. suzan khoja says:

        Apparently, we do!!! I hope you are better now.

        Take Care & Be Safe.❤✌😊

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